There
was a time in my life that I would never have left the house without makeup.
I’m
talking about a full-face war mask that covered every perceived blemish
underneath it. This entailed full
coverage foundation, concealer, corrector, topped with mineral powder
foundation (yes, two layers of foundation), then coloured with full on thick
matte lipstick, blush, eyeshadow, eyeliner, oodles of mascara, and a little
bronzer and highlighter. It didn’t look
as bad as it sounds but subtle it was not.
I
was very into the beauty side of things before and bought a lot of
cosmetics. And I mean a lot. An amount so large, that most of it had to be
given away on a regular basis in one of my purging events that I have talked
about before. Mainly because there is no
way I can use that much before it goes bad and partly because, well, it made
way for more purchases.
But
now that I’ve entered into my thirties, I’ve noticed that going out without
makeup just doesn’t bother me anymore.
As I reached the end of my twenties I came to accept the slight dark
circles that I naturally have under my eyes and the constant redness on my
cheeks. I realised that my forehead
isn’t as big as I think it is and even though my eyes aren’t as large as all my
sisters’ they aren’t small either.
I
still draw the line at having the right side of my face photographed though –
my nose looks much much straighter on the left side.
Still
though, I think it is with age that you come to accept the things about you
that make you uniquely you. If you know
what I mean.
One
thing I haven’t been able to shift with age though is an annoying little
emotion called guilt. Guilt when you
fail to live up to other people’s expectations.
Guilt when family sees you as being the best at something then you don’t
or can’t deliver. I think the desire to
please features strongly here too.
You
see this happened when I made those damned Ganache filled Red Velvet Cupcakes. Cupcakes – not the things
which give me the most joy when baking.
But these were so good that requests came thick and fast for more and I
set about making what I described as a ‘top three desert island dessert’ under much
pressure and at a point in time when I was in a very low mood.
The combination of pressure and low mood and
distractions and I don’t know what else made these turn out not as good as the
first batch. Since some in the family
wanted to (and did) give these to friends because they were so impressed with
them, well... It just drenched me with
feelings of guilt.
They
weren’t bad exactly, just not as good as before. I tried to look back and analyse what went
wrong and I realised a couple of things.
Firstly I used all plain flour and missed out the cornflour by accident. This was because I had written ‘cake flour’
in my notepad (copying direct from the site) and didn’t substitute the amount
of cornflour into the flour quantity that I know I’m supposed to do when I
write down ‘cake flour’. I also doubled
the recipe since so many wanted seconds the first time but didn’t get any. I’m not sure what happened in the doubling of
the recipe but there was a lot of oil.
Maybe I should have decreased the quantity of oil a little when doubling
– I don’t know.
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You can see here that the texture was dry, crispy and crumbly on the top and edges |
I
should definitely have used the electric whisk which I advised you all to do in
the post, but I didn’t. I used a hand
held whisk because there were too many people milling about the kitchen and I
didn’t want to go in there. These are
not excuses by the way, this is an analysis.
So
the oil wasn’t thoroughly incorporated into the batter and when placed into the
cupcake cases, separated even more. I
also lost my ice-cream scoop. Because
this was my parents’ house and things get lost very quickly and very easily in my
parents’ house. So I had to use two
tablespoons which took longer and gave the cupcakes more time to separate. These then basically baked with a slight layer
of separated oil which made the top and sides crunchy and nothing like the
soft, light, fluffy ones I made before.
The taste was still great but the texture was all wrong.
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The cake still tasted great though and the inside was soft |
So
what did I do to remedy the situation? I
set about trying to find another batch of the best tasting cupcakes I could.
When
I came across these in my then newly purchased book Back in the Day Bakery by Cheryl and Griffith Day I was very hopeful. Partly because the recipe uses the reverse
creaming method which I have tried with good results before, making a cake that
was very soft albeit a little dense. I was
curious to see how they would translate into cupcakes and can say that they
were a tremendous success. You know they
taste good when people are eating them without them even being iced yet.
When
I did manage to ice the ones left I used my own very simple cream cheese icing
rather than the buttercream suggested in the book. I rarely like simple buttercream as I find it
too sweet. I think the cream cheese cuts
into that sweetness very nicely and always prefer it for simple icing. After making the cream cheese icing, I divided
it into two bowls and placed some strawberry jam and pink food colouring in one
and some spoonfuls of caramel and tangerine food colouring in the other. I find this is the simplest method of making ‘different
flavoured’ cupcakes and it does make a difference in taste even though the vanilla
cupcake underneath the icing is the same.
It’s a great technique if you’re baking for a fund raiser/stall/farmers
market as you can get lots of flavours by using the same cupcake recipe and
adjusting the icing a little. You can
try it with adding different flavoured jams, citrus zest, purees and conserves,
then by coring the cupcake and adding the correspondingly flavoured jam, curd
or ganache.
This
is an American book so all the recipes are in volume measurements using cups (1
cup = 250ml). I’m very comfortable using
both cups and grams and have the equipment for both, so rarely convert volume
measurements into grams although I will give the calculated equivalents in
brackets below. I also can’t find cake
flour in the UK and when the recipe calls for it, I always use a mix of plain
flour and cornflour to substitute.
This
recipe makes some very soft cupcakes that are just the perfect balance between
dense and fluffy, although slightly leaning more towards the dense side. The vanilla flavour is very well showcased
and I feel it’s better to use vanilla paste or a vanilla pod if you have them
as the taste will be so much better and pronounced. Although the cake is good on its own, taking
a bite with the cream cheese icing is just sublime. This is definitely my favourite vanilla
cupcake recipe, I feel like I don’t need to look for another now that I have
this in my repertoire.
Vanilla
Cupcakes (makes 24)
·
1 cup (250ml) full fat milk
·
1 tsp vanilla extract or ¼ tsp vanilla
paste
·
2 ¾ cups (400g) plain flour
·
¼ cup (30g) cornflour
·
2 cups (400g) sugar (I used caster)
·
1 tbsp baking powder
·
¾ tsp fine sea salt
·
½ pound (230g) unsalted butter, cut into
cubes, room temperature
·
4 large eggs, room temperature
Preheat
the oven to 180C and prepare 24 muffin tins with liners (I used muffin liners
rather than cupcake liners and got exactly 24 cupcakes).
Mix
together the milk and vanilla and set aside.
Combine
the flours, sugar, baking powder and salt together until well incorporated (I did
this by a hand whisk).
Add
the butter to the dry ingredients and mix with an electric mixer until the
mixture resembles coarse breadcrumbs. I personally
find it easier to mix in the butter by hand, using the tips of my fingers to
rub the butter into the dry ingredients.
It is also far more enjoyable!
Add
the eggs one at a time mix in thoroughly after each addition. Gradually add the milk and vanilla and mix
until well incorporated.
Using
a large ice cream scoop if you have one (or two tablespoons, if you don’t),
scoop the batter into the liners and bake for about 25 minutes.
Cream
Cheese Icing
·
200g Philadelphia Cream Cheese (full fat),
from fridge
·
250g unsalted butter, room temperature
·
750g-1kg icing sugar
·
Strawberry jam
·
Caramel
·
Pink and tangerine food colouring
Whisk
the cream cheese with an electric whisk until lightened. Add the butter and whisk until the two
ingredients are well mixed.
Gradually
add the icing sugar and mix in each addition by hand first before using the
electric whisk to prevent it flying all over the place. You can sift the icing sugar before adding to
make it easier to incorporate but I don’t.
Keep adding the icing sugar until you have a consistency of icing that
is fairly firm – you will be adding jams and caramel to it later which will
soften it up. I used approximately 750g
icing sugar.
Divide
the icing into two bowls (or more if using more than two flavours). Add about 3 tbsps of jam (or to taste) to one
and mix in, then add a little pink food colouring if you prefer – the jam turns
the icing a little pink so you might not want to add the extra colouring. Add about 4-5 tbsps (or to taste) of caramel
to the other with the tangerine food colouring and mix in well. If you don’t have pink and tangerine food
colouring then simply substitute with what you do have to hand.
Assembly
Once
the cupcakes have cooled completely, place the icing in icing bags fitted with
icing nozzles of your choice (try saying that really fast!). decorate with sprinkles and dragees of your
choice.